Compartmentalizing.

I envy those who can do it. Men even seem to be better at it than women....some just have a gift.

I don't.

I think that being sensitive and emotional is a good thing. It helps me be a better person most days. I love listening to people and supporting, encouraging and comforting. I can empathize and sympathize with most feelings....

But I can't compartmentalize those feelings.

When I feel something, I really feel it. I can feel it for a long time - and I have a hard time not bringing it into the other parts of my life. Maybe I am over-emotional, too sensitive, analytical, speculative and introspective...just a few of the names I've been called. But even if I am all those things - I love the positive light to all of those characteristics. I just wish I could shut them off once in a while to be able to have clarity in other parts of my life.

So I wonder, how can people take an important part of their life and make it just one piece of their life...without it influencing or affecting other parts? How can they turn the emotions on and off, depending on who they are with? And then act like it didn't even affect them in any way.

I want to compartmentalize. It seems like a real easy way to live. Just walking in and out of different rooms of your life -- without a second thought to the mess in the room you were just in. How simple, how effortless and uncomplicated must your life be when you can compartmentalize....

And yet you must wonder if your life seems so simple....how much of it is fake? Life is hard. And if you can't feel the reality...there's no point in living it.

On second thought; I'm glad I don't compartmentalize...because I like feeling.

xo J